I’ve noticed a distinct trend of uncertainty in my life.
I move, I research, I teach, and then I repeat the same, usually in the exact order. I’ve always been terrible at sitting still. When my world is quiet, when I am not drowning in things that must be done, my mood gets dark. I have always somehow thrived in high stress situations. I feel they bring out the best in me, and push me to new limits by forcing me to surpass the previous.
So let us review, one by one.
I am alone. My previous residence was too many hallways, too many empty bedrooms, too much space that went unused. My needs were served by three simple rooms, and I hovered in those spaces. Only they seemed to contain any warmth, any feeling of home. The rest of the house felt alien to me. Ultimately, it was useless to have so much unneeded space. Thus, I moved. I found a place that is quiet, small, and perfect for me. Yet it took a while to move because, as is the case when moving from a large space to a new one, the task of determining what would come and what would stay was lengthy. But it was done, and I am content.
History is a conversation that never stops, it simply evolves and changes. New voices are always added, and new evidence brings to light new ideas. History isn’t a circle, it is a multi-thread spiral that spins forward into infinity. I like to inject my voice into this dialogue whenever possible. Fortunately, no historian in their right mind expects any of their peers to be experts at everything, so we fall into niche groups. Some are small: I have a colleague that studies one particular city in North-West Italy, particularly during the era of World War I. Another is a historian of ideas, meaning he studies the Enlightenment. Even a Classicist such as myself recognises that trying to study all of Classical history is impossible. Within Roman history is pre-urban Rome, the time of Kings, the Republic, the decline and fall of the Republic, the transition to Empire, the Empire (in phases), Crisis of Empire, and then finally decline and fall/transformation.
I find my niche in transition periods. I can argue endlessly about the destruction of the Roman Republic. And then I can argue even further for the decline/fall and transformation of the Roman Empire.
In short, I have been researching and I have been publishing. Though, oddly enough, nothing to do with Rome.
Teaching is the profession of my choice. There is nothing more to say about it other than that I have been keeping myself busy.