I wonder where Danny is now. …Back then, as Daniel was lost and apathetic. How was it for you to see him suffer? You dont know him well, right? What have you did to comfort him? So good as it was possible of course.
Had I been at Daniels place, I would have been absolutely desperate. And nothing could have helped me.
I loved Daniel, and I still do, though I imagine he feels that I resent him or judge him harshly. He left my care to return to Armand, and has since, for reasons beyond my understanding, forgotten me. I wonder if he ever had any love for me, but to hope now is beyond the weary possibilities of my heart.
Daniel is of my blood. I found him lost and alone, and I felt it was my duty to protect him. Not only to preserve his life, but also to make sure that when Armand wanted him back, when Armand once again needed him, Daniel would be there. Armand has lost so much that I will spend my eternity seeing to the preservation of all he wants and loves. I will never let Armand lose another thing, certainly not someone he loves. That is why I cared for Daniel, and that is why Benji and Sybelle had to be. Yes, Armand resents me for all, but I know in my heart I have spared him from a pain worst that the betrayal he sees. As it happened, I inadvertently began to love Daniel and was very sad when he recovered his senses and prepared to leave me. It was never a mutual sharing of affection.
I did not care for Daniel for thanks from either Armand or Daniel, or even to be loved in return by Daniel, but I admit that I had wanted just a bit that he would come to. It was a foolish desire, and one I know better than to think now.